This is from Tim Keller from Redeemer, from the Innovation3 conference
You have got to go after God for blessing.
Jacob (from Genesis) spent his life trying to get blessing, but he did not get it until he went after God in Genesis 32.
Human blessing will kill you because it never seems to last more than 5 minutes.
You have to take the gospel, and you have to see where you are not believing the gospel, and you must pound it into your heart day after day.